Unutdu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcs\u0259n. H\u0259yat bir g\u00fcn sizi qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131rar, yan\u0131ndan \u00f6t\u00fcb g\u00f6rm\u0259zd\u0259n g\u0259ls\u0259n d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rin dayana bilm\u0259z v\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259rs\u0259n yenid\u0259n g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. O zaman bax\u0131\u015flar toqqu\u015far v\u0259 s\u00fckut \u00e7\u00f6k\u0259r aran\u0131zda, art\u0131q zaman v\u0259 m\u0259kan anlay\u0131\u015f\u0131 yoxdur. Sad\u0259c\u0259 o v\u0259 s\u0259n. H\u0259y\u0259candan h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259rin\u0259 diqq\u0259t ed\u0259 bilm\u0259zs\u0259n v\u0259 heyr\u0259tl\u0259nmi\u015f kimi ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 astaca yell\u0259yib salam ver\u0259rs\u0259n. Ona heyr\u0259tl\u0259 baxarsan. A\u011fl\u0131na ilk ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n zaman g\u0259l\u0259r. Ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c\u0131n m\u00fck\u0259mm\u0259l olmas\u0131 bu s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259n bu q\u0259d\u0259r \u00f6n\u0259mlidir. O an s\u0259n\u0259 ke\u00e7mi\u015f\u0259 qay\u0131tmaq t\u0259klif olunsa he\u00e7 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u0259d\u0259n “H\u0259!” cavab\u0131n\u0131 ver\u0259rs\u0259n. Onu ilk vaxtlardak\u0131 kimi g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. Arada he\u00e7 bir problemin olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131, h\u0259r saniy\u0259 sevginin nec\u0259 g\u00fccl\u0259ndiyini hiss etm\u0259yin v\u0259 hiss etdirm\u0259yin ke\u00e7\u0259r a\u011fl\u0131ndan.<\/p>\n
Bir az sonra h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131n\u0131 yox etm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015far, s\u0259sl\u0259nib “nec\u0259s\u0259n?”<\/strong> dey\u0259 soru\u015farsan. \u018fslind\u0259 nec\u0259 oldu\u011funu bilirs\u0259n, eynil\u0259 s\u0259nin oldu\u011fun kimi. Amma cavab\u0131nda onun nec\u0259 oldu\u011funu e\u015fitm\u0259zs\u0259n \u00e7\u00fcnki, “t\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcrl\u0259r, s\u0259n nec\u0259s\u0259n?”<\/strong> qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131 g\u0259l\u0259r. Verm\u0259k ist\u0259diyin cavabla verdiyin cavab \u00fcst-\u00fcst\u0259 d\u00fc\u015fm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k, \u00e7\u00fcnki he\u00e7 s\u0259n d\u0259 nec\u0259 oldu\u011funu dem\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n. Acizliyini g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259m\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn. Bitdiyi g\u00fcnd\u0259n b\u0259ri h\u0259r g\u00fcn \u00f6l\u00fcb dirildiyini, stressd\u0259n d\u0259li olmaq d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259sin\u0259 \u00e7atd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 bilm\u0259sini ist\u0259m\u0259zs\u0259n.<\/p>\n O da s\u0259ni d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u0259r v\u0259 hissl\u0259rini dem\u0259k ist\u0259y\u0259r, amma………… Bu ammalar h\u0259mi\u015f\u0259 \u00fcz\u00fcm\u00fczd\u0259ki t\u0259b\u0259ss\u00fcm\u00fc yox etmi\u015fdir. Sonra eqo ortaya \u00e7\u0131xar, tamamil\u0259 hal\u0131ndan m\u0259mnunmu\u015f kimi bir ifad\u0259 yaranar \u00fcz\u00fcnd\u0259. Sanki \u0259zab \u00e7\u0259k\u0259n insan olmam\u0131san kimi…<\/p>\n Bu s\u0259b\u0259bd\u0259ndir ayr\u0131lanlar\u0131n yenid\u0259n bir araya g\u0259l\u0259 bilm\u0259m\u0259si. Eqo, eqo, eqo… Nec\u0259 d\u0259 ist\u0259rdin yenid\u0259n ya\u015fanmas\u0131n\u0131, bu d\u0259f\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcn \u0259ng\u0259ll\u0259ri birlikd\u0259 a\u015fma\u011f\u0131. Lakin art\u0131q gecdir, onun g\u00f6zl\u0259rind\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259rini qa\u00e7\u0131rarsan. \u00c7\u00fcnki ona baxark\u0259n g\u00f6zl\u0259rin hayq\u0131raraq yalvar\u0131r,\u00a0“Nolar getm\u0259!”<\/strong>\u00a0dey\u0259. \u018fslind\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rin d\u0259, q\u0259lbin d\u0259 b\u00fct\u00fcnl\u00fckl\u0259 onu arzulay\u0131r…<\/p>\n M\u00fc\u0259llif: Nicat Ta\u011f\u0131zad\u0259<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Unutdu\u011funu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fcs\u0259n. H\u0259yat bir g\u00fcn sizi qar\u015f\u0131la\u015fd\u0131rar, yan\u0131ndan \u00f6t\u00fcb g\u00f6rm\u0259zd\u0259n g\u0259ls\u0259n d\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rin dayana bilm\u0259z v\u0259 d\u00f6n\u0259rs\u0259n yenid\u0259n g\u00f6rm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":141,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"colormag_page_container_layout":"default_layout","colormag_page_sidebar_layout":"default_layout","pgc_sgb_lightbox_settings":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[59,68,101,113,115,117,123],"class_list":["post-140","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-nicat-tagizad","tag-eqo","tag-gozlr","tag-mullif","tag-naxcivan","tag-nicat","tag-nicat-tagizad","tag-onu-gornd"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/140","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=140"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/140\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/141"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=140"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=140"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=140"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}