\u201c N\u0259 olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcn ki? El\u0259 bilirdin n\u0259yis\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n? H\u0259yat\u0131ndan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k bu q\u0259d\u0259r asand\u0131r? Onu bir daha he\u00e7 vaxt g\u00f6r\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259ks\u0259n!\u201d<\/p>\n
B\u0259d\u0259nind\u0259n axan soyuq t\u0259r il\u0259 yata\u011f\u0131nda d\u0259h\u015f\u0259tl\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini a\u00e7d\u0131. A\u011fl\u0131na ilk g\u0259l\u0259n \u015fey \u201cax\u0131 m\u0259n sad\u0259c\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u0259qiq\u0259 \u0259vv\u0259l yuxuya getmi\u015fdim\u201d s\u00f6zl\u0259ri oldu. A\u011flamaqdan yor\u011fun d\u00fc\u015fm\u00fc\u015f v\u0259 el\u0259 bir d\u0259rin yuxuya getmi\u015fdi ki, s\u0259h\u0259rin a\u00e7\u0131lmas\u0131n\u0131n bel\u0259 tez olaca\u011f\u0131na inanmam\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Amma el\u0259 bu bir ne\u00e7\u0259 saniy\u0259lik g\u0259r\u0259ksiz d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnc\u0259 \u0259sas onu yaralayan suallarla \u0259v\u0259zl\u0259ndi.<\/p>\n
O gec\u0259 ad\u0131n\u0131 bel\u0259 qoya bilm\u0259diyi m\u00fcnasib\u0259t\u0259 son qoymu\u015fdu. Bu \u00f6z\u00fcn\u0259 d\u0259 axmaql\u0131q kimi g\u0259lirdi, \u00e7\u00fcnki onu he\u00e7 g\u00f6rm\u0259mi\u015fdi bel\u0259. O sad\u0259c\u0259 d\u0259rd orta\u011f\u0131 idi. Q\u0131z\u0131n m\u0259cburi ni\u015fanl\u0131 olmas\u0131 v\u0259 s\u0131x\u0131nt\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 onunla payla\u015fmas\u0131 m\u00fcnasib\u0259tin ba\u015flan\u011f\u0131c\u0131 olmu\u015fdu. Amma he\u00e7 \u00f6z\u00fc d\u0259 bilm\u0259d\u0259n ona el\u0259 ba\u011fland\u0131 ki, h\u0259yat\u0131nda d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f n\u00f6qt\u0259si yaradacaq q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259sir etmi\u015fdi ona.<\/p>\n
Amma haz\u0131r deyildi. B\u00fct\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131ndan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259k\u0259r\u0259k onun yan\u0131na getm\u0259y\u0259, onun da h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131 d\u0259yi\u015fdirm\u0259y\u0259. He\u00e7 b\u0259lli deyildi n\u0259tic\u0259nin n\u0259 olaca\u011f\u0131 v\u0259 n\u0259hay\u0259t q\u0259rar\u0131n\u0131 vermi\u015fdi onun h\u0259yat\u0131nda sad\u0259c\u0259 epizodik rol oldu\u011funa v\u0259 onu t\u0259rk etm\u0259yin zaman\u0131n\u0131n g\u0259ldiyin\u0259. H\u0259yat\u0131nda \u00fcz\u00fcnt\u00fcd\u0259n ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 n\u0259yi olmayan q\u0131z s\u0131\u011f\u0131nm\u0131\u015fd\u0131 o\u011flan\u0131n s\u0259mimiyy\u0259tin\u0259 v\u0259 onu itirm\u0259y\u0259 haz\u0131r deyildi. Sad\u0259c\u0259 klaviaturada s\u0131x\u0131lan bir ne\u00e7\u0259 d\u00fcym\u0259 il\u0259 yaz\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u018flvida s\u00f6z\u00fc v\u0259 m\u00fcnasib\u0259tin tamamil\u0259 k\u0259silm\u0259si… Bu g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fcy\u00fc q\u0259d\u0259r sad\u0259 deyildi. \u00c7\u00fcnki el\u0259 h\u0259min an pe\u015fman olmu\u015fdu etdikl\u0259rin\u0259 v\u0259 art\u0131q gec idi onu tapmaq, ona yenid\u0259n ba\u011flanmaq, onunla olmaq… Bunu saatlarla d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcb siqaretind\u0259n d\u0259rin t\u00fcst\u00fcl\u0259r alaraq g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259n axan pe\u015fmanl\u0131q ya\u015flar\u0131n\u0131 sildi.<\/p>\n
O gec\u0259 q\u0131zdan x\u0259b\u0259r tuta bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. O gec\u0259 h\u00fczur i\u00e7ind\u0259 g\u00f6zl\u0259rini yuma bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. O gec\u0259 xo\u015fb\u0259xt deyildi. O gec\u0259 onun \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ……………………<\/p>\n
— M\u00fc\u0259llif: Nicat Ta\u011f\u0131zad\u0259<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u201c N\u0259 olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fcn ki? El\u0259 bilirdin n\u0259yis\u0259 d\u0259yi\u015f\u0259 bil\u0259rs\u0259n? H\u0259yat\u0131ndan \u0259l \u00e7\u0259km\u0259k bu q\u0259d\u0259r asand\u0131r? Onu bir daha he\u00e7<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":422,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"colormag_page_container_layout":"default_layout","colormag_page_sidebar_layout":"default_layout","pgc_sgb_lightbox_settings":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-420","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-hekaylr-stories"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/420","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=420"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/420\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/422"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=420"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=420"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/nicattagizade.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=420"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}