C\u0259nab n\u00f6vb\u0259ti g\u00fcn foyey\u0259 endiyi zaman tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 o g\u00f6z\u0259l qad\u0131n\u0131n u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n\u0131n otel xidm\u0259t\u00e7isi il\u0259 h\u0259rar\u0259tli bir t\u0259rzd\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 v\u0259 ona \u0259lind\u0259 tutdu\u011fu kitab\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259rm\u0259y\u0259 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Anas\u0131 ortal\u0131qda g\u00f6r\u00fcnm\u00fcr, dey\u0259s\u0259n h\u0259l\u0259 g\u00fczg\u00fcn\u00fcn qar\u015f\u0131s\u0131ndan ayr\u0131la bilm\u0259mi\u015fdi. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131 indi yax\u0131ndan s\u00fcz\u0259 bilmi\u015fdi. Sanki bir az \u00f6nc\u0259 yuxusundan oyad\u0131l\u0131b tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir \u00e7evr\u0259y\u0259 at\u0131lm\u0131\u015f kimi y\u00f6n\u00fcn\u00fc itirmi\u015fdi. \u00dcz\u00fc sevimsiz deyildi amma sol\u011fun g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcrd\u00fc, h\u0259r \u015fey h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259 \u015f\u0259kill\u0259ndirilm\u0259yi g\u00f6zl\u0259y\u0259n x\u0259mir kimi idi, sol\u011fun v\u0259 h\u00fczursuz…<\/p>\n\n\n\n
H\u0259r k\u0259sin aya\u011f\u0131na dolan\u0131rd\u0131, bitm\u0259k-t\u00fck\u0259nm\u0259k bilm\u0259y\u0259n suallarla da ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u011fr\u0131td\u0131\u011f\u0131 xidm\u0259t\u00e7i onu bir k\u0259nara it\u0259l\u0259mi\u015fdi. Bu d\u0259f\u0259 d\u0259 giri\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131ndak\u0131 xidm\u0259t\u00e7ini tutma\u011fa \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rd\u0131. U\u015faq bezdiriciliyi il\u0259 otel xidm\u0259t\u00e7il\u0259rinin \u0259traf\u0131nda dolan\u0131r, onlar da zaman olduqca u\u015faqla maraqlan\u0131r, lakin bir i\u015f \u00e7\u0131xd\u0131\u011f\u0131nda d\u0259rhal s\u00f6hb\u0259ti sonland\u0131rmal\u0131 olurdular. <\/p>\n\n\n\n
“Asan bir vasit\u0259\u00e7i olaraq anas\u0131 il\u0259 yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131ra bil\u0259rmi?”<\/em> – dey\u0259 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc c\u0259nab. Hiss etdirm\u0259d\u0259n izl\u0259di u\u015fa\u011f\u0131. Giri\u015f qap\u0131s\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xan u\u015faq k\u00fc\u00e7\u0259d\u0259 d\u0259 m\u0259qs\u0259dsizc\u0259 dolan\u0131rd\u0131. C\u0259nab ola bildiyinc\u0259 g\u00fcl\u0259r\u00fcz bir \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 araya gir\u0259r\u0259k: “G\u00f6z\u0259l xan\u0131m, buralar xo\u015funuza g\u0259lirmi?” <\/em>– dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu. U\u015faq q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 oldu v\u0259 \u00fcrk\u0259k bir \u015f\u0259kild\u0259 c\u0259naba baxd\u0131. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 tan\u0131mad\u0131\u011f\u0131 adam onunla dan\u0131\u015fma\u011fa c\u0259hd edirdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n A\u011fz\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0259tinlikl\u0259 bir ne\u00e7\u0259 s\u00f6z \u00e7\u0131xar\u0131b “T\u0259\u015f\u0259kk\u00fcrl\u0259r, \u00e7ox yax\u015f\u0131d\u0131r” qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 verdi. C\u0259nab g\u00fcl\u0259r\u0259k: “T\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259ndim!” dedi. “Bura \u00e7ox s\u0131x\u0131c\u0131 bir yerdi, h\u0259l\u0259 ki, s\u0259nin kimi g\u00f6z\u0259l bir q\u0131z \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn… B\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn n\u0259 edirs\u0259n bel\u0259 yerd\u0259?”<\/p>\n\n\n\n U\u015faq d\u0259rhal cavab ver\u0259 bilm\u0259y\u0259c\u0259k q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcb i\u00e7ind\u0259 idi h\u0259l\u0259 d\u0259. G\u00fccl\u0259 \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc toplayaraq: “Kitab oxuyuram, sonra, bolca g\u0259zirik anamla. Burada dinc\u0259l\u0259 bil\u0259r\u0259m… X\u0259st\u0259y\u0259m m\u0259n, buna g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fd\u0259 dayanmal\u0131yam… H\u0259kim deyib.” dey\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131l\u0131q verdi.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Son s\u00f6zl\u0259ri daha g\u00fcv\u0259n dolu demi\u015fdi. U\u015faqlar x\u0259st\u0259likl\u0259ri il\u0259 h\u0259r zaman q\u00fcrur duyarlar, \u00e7\u00fcnki t\u0259hl\u00fck\u0259li v\u0259ziyy\u0259tl\u0259rin onlar\u0131 valideynl\u0259rinin g\u00f6z\u00fcnd\u0259 iki qat daha d\u0259y\u0259rli hala g\u0259tirdiyini bilirl\u0259r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n “H\u0259, g\u00fcn\u0259\u015f \u00e7ox faydal\u0131d\u0131r, h\u0259m d\u0259 yax\u015f\u0131ca yanm\u0131\u015f olarsan. Amma b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn d\u0259 g\u00fcn\u0259\u015fd\u0259 oturub g\u00f6zl\u0259m\u0259k do\u011fru olmaz. S\u0259nin kimi bir q\u0131z \u0259trafda g\u0259zm\u0259li, c\u0259sur olmal\u0131, h\u0259tta \u015fuluq da etm\u0259lidir. S\u0259ns\u0259 \u00e7ox sakits\u0259n, \u0259lind\u0259ki o kitabla da he\u00e7 ota\u011f\u0131ndan \u00e7\u0131xmayan bir u\u015fa\u011fa b\u0259nz\u0259yirs\u0259n. M\u0259n s\u0259nin ya\u015f\u0131ndayk\u0259n yerimd\u0259 dura bilmirdim, h\u0259r ax\u015fam dizl\u0259ri c\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015f \u015falvarla ev\u0259 qay\u0131dard\u0131m. H\u0259r zaman sakit qalmaq faydal\u0131 deyildir.”<\/p>\n\n\n\n U\u015faq ist\u0259msizc\u0259 g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di v\u0259 yen\u0259 dan\u0131\u015fmaq ist\u0259yirdi, amma onunla bel\u0259 dostca dan\u0131\u015fan bir adama dey\u0259c\u0259k he\u00e7 n\u0259 a\u011fl\u0131na g\u0259lmirdi. <\/p>\n\n\n\n C\u0259nab “itl\u0259ri xo\u015flay\u0131rsan?” dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu anid\u0259n.<\/p>\n\n\n\n “H\u0259m d\u0259 \u00e7ox. N\u0259n\u0259mgilin villas\u0131nda bir it var. Orada qald\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z zamanlarda b\u00fct\u00fcn g\u00fcn he\u00e7 yan\u0131mdan ayr\u0131lmaz. Amma sad\u0259c\u0259 yayda oraya gedirik…”<\/p>\n\n\n\n “Bilirs\u0259n, bizim fermada da \u00e7ox sayda itl\u0259r var. Bel\u0259 sakit u\u015faq olsan onlardan birini s\u0259n\u0259 h\u0259diyy\u0259 ed\u0259r\u0259m. Qulaqlar\u0131 a\u011f, \u00f6z\u00fc q\u0259hv\u0259yi olan\u0131n\u0131. \u018fn g\u00f6z\u0259li odur v\u0259 h\u0259l\u0259 balacad\u0131r. \u0130st\u0259y\u0259rs\u0259n?”<\/p>\n\n\n\n U\u015faq xo\u015fb\u0259xtlikd\u0259n q\u0131\u015fq\u0131racaq d\u0259r\u0259c\u0259y\u0259 g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. “\u00c7ox ist\u0259y\u0259r\u0259m!” dedi. “Amma anam izin verm\u0259z, evd\u0259 it olmas\u0131n\u0131 ist\u0259mir. Evi alt-\u00fcst edirl\u0259r deyir.”<\/p>\n\n\n\n C\u0259nab g\u00fcl\u00fcms\u0259di, \u00e7\u00fcnki m\u00f6vzu n\u0259hay\u0259t anas\u0131na g\u0259lmi\u015fdi. “Anan \u00e7ox s\u0259rt qad\u0131nd\u0131r?” – dey\u0259 soru\u015fdu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n U\u015faq bir az d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fckd\u0259n sonra: “Yox, anam s\u0259rt deyil. \u0130ndi x\u0259st\u0259y\u0259m dey\u0259 h\u0259r \u015fey etm\u0259yim\u0259 izin verir. B\u0259lk\u0259 bir it saxlama\u011f\u0131ma da izin ver\u0259r.”<\/p>\n\n\n\n “O halda b\u0259lk\u0259 anandan m\u0259n d\u0259 xahi\u015f ed\u0259r\u0259m izin verm\u0259si \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn.”<\/p>\n\n\n\n U\u015faq bu h\u0259y\u0259canla art\u0131q suallar ya\u011fd\u0131rma\u011fa haz\u0131r idi: “Ad\u0131 n\u0259dir itin?”<\/p>\n\n\n\n “Zeytun.”<\/p>\n\n\n\n “Zeytun?”<\/p>\n\n\n\n C\u0259nab \u0259ld\u0259 etdiyi bu u\u011fur \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn sevinir v\u0259 biraz da sui-istifad\u0259 etdiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn utan\u0131rd\u0131. U\u015fa\u011f\u0131 biraz \u0259trafda g\u0259zm\u0259y\u0259 d\u0259v\u0259t etdi. Biri il\u0259 n\u0259s\u0259 etm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn h\u0259ft\u0259l\u0259rdir q\u0131vranan bu u\u015faq t\u0259klif \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn havalara u\u00e7mu\u015fdu. Yeni dostunun q\u0131sa suallar il\u0259 q\u0131zdan \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259k ist\u0259diyi h\u0259r \u015feyi he\u00e7 \u015f\u00fcbh\u0259l\u0259nm\u0259d\u0259n bir-bir izah etmi\u015fdi. O bir v\u0259kilin q\u0131z\u0131 idi. Atas\u0131 z\u0259ngin bir ail\u0259d\u0259n olmal\u0131 idi. Ustaca sor\u011fu-sual\u0131 il\u0259 anas\u0131n\u0131n \u0259slind\u0259 bu s\u0259yah\u0259ti ist\u0259m\u0259diyini, buran\u0131n \u00e7ox s\u0131x\u0131c\u0131 v\u0259 \u0259yl\u0259nc\u0259d\u0259n uzaq oldu\u011fundan \u015fikay\u0259tl\u0259ndiyini \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdi. H\u0259tta anas\u0131n\u0131n atas\u0131n\u0131 sevib sevm\u0259diyini soru\u015fanda q\u0131z\u0131n t\u0259r\u0259dd\u00fcdl\u00fc cavab\u0131ndan aralar\u0131n\u0131n yax\u015f\u0131 olmad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da \u00f6yr\u0259nmi\u015fdi. B\u00fct\u00fcn ki\u00e7ik ail\u0259 sirrl\u0259rini bu u\u015faqdan \u00f6yr\u0259ndiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn utanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. <\/p>\n\n\n\n Bu g\u0259zinti h\u0259r ikisini d\u0259 qane etmi\u015f kimi idi. Sa\u011folla\u015f\u0131b uzaqla\u015fanda, c\u0259nab\u0131n ona bir dostu kimi g\u00f6z vurdu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u0259nd\u0259 d\u0259 \u00fcr\u0259yi q\u00fcrurlanm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. Bu b\u0259lk\u0259 d\u0259 h\u0259yat\u0131n\u0131n \u0259n g\u00f6z\u0259l an\u0131 idi. U\u015faqlar\u0131 aldatmaq bu q\u0259d\u0259r asand\u0131r.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Bu plan\u0131n m\u00fck\u0259mm\u0259lliyi bir saat sonra ortaya \u00e7\u0131xacaqd\u0131. Restorana bil\u0259r\u0259k bir az gec g\u0259ldiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn u\u015faq oturdu\u011fu stuldan d\u0259rhal aya\u011fa qalx\u0131b h\u0259y\u0259canla \u0259l ed\u0259r\u0259k c\u0259nab\u0131 salamlad\u0131. Eyni zamanda da anas\u0131n\u0131n qolundan \u00e7\u0259ki\u015fdirib ona c\u0259nab\u0131 g\u00f6st\u0259r\u0259r\u0259k h\u0259y\u0259canla bir ne\u00e7\u0259 s\u00f6z dedi. Q\u0131z\u0131n\u0131n h\u0259dsiz h\u0259y\u0259can\u0131ndan utand\u0131\u011f\u0131 b\u0259lli olan qad\u0131n ist\u0259yin\u0259 qar\u015f\u0131 qoya bilm\u0259di v\u0259 ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7evirib c\u0259naba bir d\u0259f\u0259 baxmaq m\u0259cburiyy\u0259tind\u0259 qald\u0131. C\u0259nab bu bax\u0131\u015f\u0131 d\u0259rhal d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259ndir\u0259r\u0259k b\u00f6y\u00fck bir h\u00f6rm\u0259tl\u0259 ba\u015f \u0259yib salam verdi. Tan\u0131\u015fl\u0131q ba\u015f tutmu\u015fdu. Qad\u0131n ba\u015f\u0131n\u0131 a\u015fa\u011f\u0131 sal\u0131b yem\u0259k boyunca bir daha c\u0259naba t\u0259r\u0259f baxmad\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n Yem\u0259yin sonunda c\u0259nab ustaca bir h\u0259r\u0259k\u0259tl\u0259 qalxd\u0131 v\u0259 yandak\u0131 masaya yax\u0131nla\u015fd\u0131. Azac\u0131q t\u0259\u0259cc\u00fcbl\u0259nmi\u015f kimi g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u0259n qad\u0131n\u0131 a\u011f\u0131ll\u0131 v\u0259 sakit q\u0131z\u0131na g\u00f6r\u0259 t\u0259brik etdi v\u0259 nahardan \u00f6nc\u0259 \u00e7ox g\u00f6z\u0259l bir saat ke\u00e7irm\u0259l\u0259rind\u0259 onun \u00e7ox b\u00f6y\u00fck bir pay\u0131 oldu\u011fundan q\u00fcrurla dan\u0131\u015fd\u0131. U\u015faq sevincind\u0259n v\u0259 q\u00fcrurundan q\u0131pq\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 olmu\u015fdu v\u0259 ayaqda heyranl\u0131qla c\u0259naba bax\u0131rd\u0131.<\/p>\n\n\n\n C\u0259nab u\u015fa\u011f\u0131n x\u0259st\u0259liyi haqq\u0131nda detallar\u0131 \u00f6yr\u0259nm\u0259k \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn bir ne\u00e7\u0259 sual verdiyi \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn anas\u0131 cavab verm\u0259k m\u0259cburiyy\u0259tind\u0259 qald\u0131. Bel\u0259c\u0259 qa\u00e7\u0131n\u0131lmaz o uzun s\u00f6hb\u0259t ba\u015flam\u0131\u015f oldu.<\/p>\n\n\n\n <\/p>\n\n\n\n U\u015faq haqq\u0131nda bir ne\u00e7\u0259 k\u0259lim\u0259:<\/p>\n\n\n\n U\u015faq o gec\u0259 narahat yatm\u0131\u015fd\u0131. \u0130\u00e7ind\u0259 sevinc v\u0259 u\u015faqca \u00fcmidsizlik yaratd\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir qar\u0131\u015f\u0131ql\u0131q var idi. \u00c7\u00fcnki bu g\u00fcn h\u0259yat\u0131nda yeni bir \u015fey olmu\u015fdu. \u0130lk d\u0259f\u0259 b\u00f6y\u00fckl\u0259rl\u0259 bir s\u00fcfr\u0259 arxas\u0131nda u\u015faq kimi oturmam\u0131\u015f, s\u00f6zl\u0259ri k\u0259silm\u0259d\u0259n m\u00f6vzulara m\u00fcnasib\u0259t bildir\u0259 bilmi\u015fdi. Yar\u0131 yuxulu halda ik\u0259n u\u015faq oldu\u011funu unutdu v\u0259 anid\u0259n b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f kimi hiss etdi. Bu g\u00fcn\u0259 q\u0259d\u0259r t\u0259k b\u00f6y\u00fcm\u00fc\u015f v\u0259 \u00e7ox zaman x\u0259st\u0259 oldu\u011fu \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn \u00e7ox az dostu olmu\u015fdu. B\u00fct\u00fcn bu sevgi g\u00f6rm\u0259 ehtiyac\u0131 \u00fc\u00e7\u00fcn ona zaman ay\u0131ra bilm\u0259y\u0259n ana v\u0259 atas\u0131ndan v\u0259 evind\u0259ki xidm\u0259t\u00e7il\u0259rd\u0259n ba\u015fqa he\u00e7 kimi yox idi. Sevginin d\u0259y\u0259ri sad\u0259c\u0259 s\u0259b\u0259bl\u0259r\u0259 g\u00f6r\u0259 d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259ndiril\u0259c\u0259k olsa, h\u0259r zaman yanl\u0131\u015f d\u0259y\u0259rl\u0259ndirilmi\u015f dem\u0259kdir. 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